The other day I was watching an episode of Simpsons, which happens to be my most favorite series of all time. There was a scene in which Marge Simpson opens a box of shattered dreams which she keeps in the disappointment closet. Though, it was shown as a gag or a joke, I liked the idea of a box of shattered dreams.
I have had dreams ever since I was a kid. I used to dream a lot, and I still do. And over the years I have learnt, not many dreams come true. And I have also realised that, these dreams which dont come true, come back to haunt your memories and torture your soul. I never kept a written tab of all my shattered/broken dreams and I wish to list them all. This is a personal rant, and if you are mortified at having to read other's dreams then please by all means, dont read it.
Any hoooo, this is my list, in a ramdom, rambling order.
1. I always dreamt of a pet dog, whom I can call my own. I wanted him to name him Tim.
2. A Hotwheels car set or a single car atleast.
3. A train set, along with the tracks.
4. A remote controlled miniature plane.
5. A pair of doves or a parrot for a pet.
6. The Indian Airforce/Army.
7. A police inspector.
8. An IAS officer.
9. A professional wrestler ( I wanted to beat the living day lights out of Yokozuna)
10. I always wanted to play an instrument.
11. A pair of cute bunnies as pets (yes, I loveee pets!!!).
12. I always wanted to visit Egypt, see the Pyramids, un earth a mummy, get cursed, unleash hell.
13. The One ring, set in gold, hanging from my neck.
14. A cool green croc trench coat like the one Morpheus wears in The Matrix.
15. Do a wheelie on my bike.
16. Travel India alone, meet new people, discover new places, customs, taste culinary delights.
17. Skii down the slopes of a snow filled mountain side.
18. Camp in the forest.
19. Catch fish with a fish pole and bait.
20. Have a nice meal cooked in a campfire.
21. Go into the middle of a calm serene lake, read a book, while I wait for a catch.
22. Visit Brazil, see the rain forest and travel the Amazon.
23. See a crocodile.
24. Go on an adventure.
25. Get a birthday present.
26. Write a novel.
Ok, this list is making me depressed!
There are a few more shattered dreams, which I hope to complete when I am in a better mood.
These are my shattered dreams, which I have kept in a box deep down my heart and in Marge's words, keep it in the closet of disappointments.
Maybe one day someone will come along who will discover my closet of disappointment and then you all will see another post from me.
Until then, Good bye.
Have a little patience....
I was reminded of this wonderful song by Take That, in their come back album, as I was reflecting on my chat with a close friend of mine. I was really taken aback by how much important patience is, in a relationship, in fact everything. I felt really bad at the way a relationship ended, and I blame it on lack of patience. The Bible says, patience is a virtue, and today I felt, it surely is. It should have been a commandment, maybe then, people would give it a bit more importance.
The person involved, thought that by practical thinking he can move on, but can he? I cant bear to see any relationship broken, and I felt so very sad at the turn of events and how he is now, after being practical, is regretting the break up. Break ups are really good, they tell the soul, how much the person is being missed and what that person is missing in his life.
So, back to the topic. How much patience is required? Is there a limit to it? I was thinking about it the whole of the evening, and my heart felt burdened about the lack of patience in people. Being in a loving relationship is the best thing anyone can have, and a break up because of the lack of patience, is really sad. But how much can a person show patience? I feel that, if you love a person truely, there can be no limit to the patience. Yes, there maybe times when an angry word is spoken but, love conquers all.
I might seem stupid about how I link all to love, but its true. This person now misses her, feels sad that they broke up, and feels alone. Where were those so called practical thoughts on how he can live life? Where were those logical calculations on how he can plan his life and lead it without her? A decision in haste, has brought so much misery to him and the girl. I feel really sad for the both of them. Maybe now he will sing, misery is my company.
But, that has been an eye opener to me, as I pondering on my relationship with my dearest. Am I showing patience in all areas? How many times have I hurt her with my words, coz I lacked patience? Yes, patience is a virtue and I wish I could have all the patience in the world! I wish I could make a difference. I wish I could show people how much patience is needed in everything. At this moment, I can only pray and wish that God would teach people how to be patient.
And I felt I should make a commitment to be more patient, more kind, more gentle not just to my beloved, but to all my friends, to the people I meet, I work with and everyone in general. Maybe things happen because I can learn from them. They might have a broken relationship, but I have learnt from them, I need more patience, and as the song keeps reminding us, just have a lil patience.
The person involved, thought that by practical thinking he can move on, but can he? I cant bear to see any relationship broken, and I felt so very sad at the turn of events and how he is now, after being practical, is regretting the break up. Break ups are really good, they tell the soul, how much the person is being missed and what that person is missing in his life.
So, back to the topic. How much patience is required? Is there a limit to it? I was thinking about it the whole of the evening, and my heart felt burdened about the lack of patience in people. Being in a loving relationship is the best thing anyone can have, and a break up because of the lack of patience, is really sad. But how much can a person show patience? I feel that, if you love a person truely, there can be no limit to the patience. Yes, there maybe times when an angry word is spoken but, love conquers all.
I might seem stupid about how I link all to love, but its true. This person now misses her, feels sad that they broke up, and feels alone. Where were those so called practical thoughts on how he can live life? Where were those logical calculations on how he can plan his life and lead it without her? A decision in haste, has brought so much misery to him and the girl. I feel really sad for the both of them. Maybe now he will sing, misery is my company.
But, that has been an eye opener to me, as I pondering on my relationship with my dearest. Am I showing patience in all areas? How many times have I hurt her with my words, coz I lacked patience? Yes, patience is a virtue and I wish I could have all the patience in the world! I wish I could make a difference. I wish I could show people how much patience is needed in everything. At this moment, I can only pray and wish that God would teach people how to be patient.
And I felt I should make a commitment to be more patient, more kind, more gentle not just to my beloved, but to all my friends, to the people I meet, I work with and everyone in general. Maybe things happen because I can learn from them. They might have a broken relationship, but I have learnt from them, I need more patience, and as the song keeps reminding us, just have a lil patience.
still searching for an apt title....
This thought came to me while I was in church, listening to a preacher from the States. He was speaking about a man's legacy and his favourites and it stuck me. Everyone has some favourites in their life, a favourite song, a favourite poet, a favourite hero, heroine, friend, wife, etc..to each his own. Well, this is my list of the 37 favourite things in my life.
I hope this unraveling of the depths of my soul, the baring of my heart, the freakiness in my character and the things I like, doesnt come as a shock to my readers. To those who are dumbstuck, awestuck and moonstuck I have only one thing to say.......well come to think of it, I dont have anything to say, well...maybe...I would say...too bad, mate!.
Disclaimer: The following material you are about to read might be bad for your heart, so if anyone of you have a weak heart..please keep away.
Having said that, the following is my list of favourites.
1. Favourite Hymn: What a friend we have in Jesus
2. Favourite Old Testament Character: King David
3. Favourite New Testament character: Paul the apostle
4. Favourite Verse: If you confess your sins, he is faithful... (1 John 1:9)
5. Favourite Poem: Daffodils - Williams wordsworth
6. Favourite Burden:
7. Favourite Friend: Deepu
8. Favourite Quote: Do all the good you can, in all the ways you can, to all the souls you can, in every place you can, at all the times you can, with all the zeal you can, as long as ever you can. - John Wesley.
9. Favourite Holiday: Christmas day
10. Favourite Color: Green
11. Favourite Painting: Sunflowers - Van Gogh
12. Favourite Day: Friday
13. Favourite Doctrine: The Book of James
14. Favourite State: Victoria(Australia) & State of Hyderabad( Pre- Independence)
15. Favourite Word: Love
16. Favourite Prophet: Jonah
17.
18. Favourite Bird: Hawk
19. Favourite Animal: Rabbit
20. Favourite Fish: The great white shark
21. Favourite Psalm: Psalm 23
22. Favourite Question: Psalm 119:9 (How can a young man keep his way pure?)
23. Favourite phrase:
24. Favourite warning:
25. Favourite statement:
26. Favourite President: Abdul Kalam
27. Favourite Smell: the smell of a pizza being baked
28. Favourite Illustration:
29. Favourite Season: Winter
30. Favourite Preacher: My dad!
31. Favourite Epistle: Book of James
32. Favourite Instrument: Guitar, spanish Guitar to be precise.
33: Favourite Possession: none @ the moment
34: Favourite Restaurant: Astoria's in Hyderabad, La Porchetta in Melbourne.
35: Favourite Sermon: Living Sacrifice - by Pastor Nigel Lau
36: Favourite Time: 3 AM to 9 AM (110 GB download limit)
37: Favourite Topic: Holiness
I hope this unraveling of the depths of my soul, the baring of my heart, the freakiness in my character and the things I like, doesnt come as a shock to my readers. To those who are dumbstuck, awestuck and moonstuck I have only one thing to say.......well come to think of it, I dont have anything to say, well...maybe...I would say...too bad, mate!.
Disclaimer: The following material you are about to read might be bad for your heart, so if anyone of you have a weak heart..please keep away.
Having said that, the following is my list of favourites.
1. Favourite Hymn: What a friend we have in Jesus
2. Favourite Old Testament Character: King David
3. Favourite New Testament character: Paul the apostle
4. Favourite Verse: If you confess your sins, he is faithful... (1 John 1:9)
5. Favourite Poem: Daffodils - Williams wordsworth
6. Favourite Burden:
7. Favourite Friend: Deepu
8. Favourite Quote: Do all the good you can, in all the ways you can, to all the souls you can, in every place you can, at all the times you can, with all the zeal you can, as long as ever you can. - John Wesley.
9. Favourite Holiday: Christmas day
10. Favourite Color: Green
11. Favourite Painting: Sunflowers - Van Gogh
12. Favourite Day: Friday
13. Favourite Doctrine: The Book of James
14. Favourite State: Victoria(Australia) & State of Hyderabad( Pre- Independence)
15. Favourite Word: Love
16. Favourite Prophet: Jonah
17.
18. Favourite Bird: Hawk
19. Favourite Animal: Rabbit
20. Favourite Fish: The great white shark
21. Favourite Psalm: Psalm 23
22. Favourite Question: Psalm 119:9 (How can a young man keep his way pure?)
23. Favourite phrase:
24. Favourite warning:
25. Favourite statement:
26. Favourite President: Abdul Kalam
27. Favourite Smell: the smell of a pizza being baked
28. Favourite Illustration:
29. Favourite Season: Winter
30. Favourite Preacher: My dad!
31. Favourite Epistle: Book of James
32. Favourite Instrument: Guitar, spanish Guitar to be precise.
33: Favourite Possession: none @ the moment
34: Favourite Restaurant: Astoria's in Hyderabad, La Porchetta in Melbourne.
35: Favourite Sermon: Living Sacrifice - by Pastor Nigel Lau
36: Favourite Time: 3 AM to 9 AM (110 GB download limit)
37: Favourite Topic: Holiness
The war against SAM - part 2
Meanwhile, in a land far away, trouble is brewing. The weapon, the one cd, which can break the SAM, is not what it seems. Bugs doesnt know it yet. Its the middle of the night, the fortress just awoke from a reboot, and the ring tries to does its thing. The eriee glow of the two LEDS reflect on the face of Bugs, in a the quiet of the dark.
The cursor blinks, the cd turns, time stands still. The entire hopes of the assistant's future in the job rests on the one cd. And then, the cd stops, was the SAM defeated? The expressi0n on Bugs face, tells it all. The SAM has started up, and gained its full strength. There is no way Bugs can get into the fortress now. The cd is taken out, there was no reason why the cd wouldnt work. It was the one cd, and it was supposed to defeat SAM. That was the purpose of its creation, the goal of its maker.
The one cd hasnt done its job, which brings everything back to square one. can the SAM be beaten? Wil Bugs be victorious? Will the attendant lose everything? Everything rests in the hands on the one cd.
Bugs has spent the last 4 years in the domain of the evil incarnate, and he knows that the SAM can be beaten. It has been defeated in the past, and it can be defeated now. He puts the cd back in his laptop, and checks it. The cd is blank! Is this the one cd, or is this a different one. Bugs confirms in the one cd, and that its blank coz there is trouble in his laptop. One of the many minions of the evil incarnate has launched a blitz attack on Bugs laptop, and the one cd couldnt be created. The minion, namely, the cd burning wizard, attacked right where it hurt, the cd couldnt be burnt. There is no hope now for mankind.
The evil one may have won the battle, but the war is still on. Bugs contemplates new strategy. Bugs was one of the greatest strategists in the domain. He carries the scars and medals of many victories. A new dawn brings new hope, renewed spirit and ofcourse a new day.
There was a rumour in old days about a certain old laptop which stays in the cupboard down the stairs. The story was that the laptop was so evil the owner locked it up in the cupboard, where it waits to be rescued, to be awakened again, so it can spread its evil around, again. But the laptop had a working cdrom and Bugs needed that, desperately. The assistant and Bugs, started on a "wild goose" chase, but to no avail. They were about to give up, when they saw an old box filled with some old books, and behind the box, there it was. The old evil laptop. The dust and cobwebs gave it a very eriee look and the dark evil is about to awaken.
The laptop was booted up, the LEDS were lighting up for the first time in ages. The laptop was very old and had age written all over the features. Bugs hopes to use this to create another cd, which will help crack the SAM. The laptop had no SAM protection, and within minutes of booting up, Bugs was able to create a new cd, which was working. The laptop has done its job, its atonement for the many ages of evil lucking in it.
The spirits in the camp lifted. That night Bugs planned the offensive. It was quiet, it was dark and nothing could be heard except for the distant traffic and the sound of the fortress's exhausts. The cd was inserted, and the machine restarted. There was total quiet and no one even dared to breathe. The cd LED was blinking, the cursor on the fortress waited for input. The SAM was eager to get back to guarding the fortress. Did it sense the danger lurking inside the cdrom drive? It was too late for SAM as the cd started to turn and read the magic codes in it. The cursor gave way to the boot screen of the cd.
The first half of the battle was won. Will Bugs be able to crack open the SAM? Was the SAM defeated? Did the one cd do its job? Will we ever know? I dont know, maybe in the future, we hear of the ending, but for now, I bid adieu.
The cursor blinks, the cd turns, time stands still. The entire hopes of the assistant's future in the job rests on the one cd. And then, the cd stops, was the SAM defeated? The expressi0n on Bugs face, tells it all. The SAM has started up, and gained its full strength. There is no way Bugs can get into the fortress now. The cd is taken out, there was no reason why the cd wouldnt work. It was the one cd, and it was supposed to defeat SAM. That was the purpose of its creation, the goal of its maker.
The one cd hasnt done its job, which brings everything back to square one. can the SAM be beaten? Wil Bugs be victorious? Will the attendant lose everything? Everything rests in the hands on the one cd.
Bugs has spent the last 4 years in the domain of the evil incarnate, and he knows that the SAM can be beaten. It has been defeated in the past, and it can be defeated now. He puts the cd back in his laptop, and checks it. The cd is blank! Is this the one cd, or is this a different one. Bugs confirms in the one cd, and that its blank coz there is trouble in his laptop. One of the many minions of the evil incarnate has launched a blitz attack on Bugs laptop, and the one cd couldnt be created. The minion, namely, the cd burning wizard, attacked right where it hurt, the cd couldnt be burnt. There is no hope now for mankind.
The evil one may have won the battle, but the war is still on. Bugs contemplates new strategy. Bugs was one of the greatest strategists in the domain. He carries the scars and medals of many victories. A new dawn brings new hope, renewed spirit and ofcourse a new day.
There was a rumour in old days about a certain old laptop which stays in the cupboard down the stairs. The story was that the laptop was so evil the owner locked it up in the cupboard, where it waits to be rescued, to be awakened again, so it can spread its evil around, again. But the laptop had a working cdrom and Bugs needed that, desperately. The assistant and Bugs, started on a "wild goose" chase, but to no avail. They were about to give up, when they saw an old box filled with some old books, and behind the box, there it was. The old evil laptop. The dust and cobwebs gave it a very eriee look and the dark evil is about to awaken.
The laptop was booted up, the LEDS were lighting up for the first time in ages. The laptop was very old and had age written all over the features. Bugs hopes to use this to create another cd, which will help crack the SAM. The laptop had no SAM protection, and within minutes of booting up, Bugs was able to create a new cd, which was working. The laptop has done its job, its atonement for the many ages of evil lucking in it.
The spirits in the camp lifted. That night Bugs planned the offensive. It was quiet, it was dark and nothing could be heard except for the distant traffic and the sound of the fortress's exhausts. The cd was inserted, and the machine restarted. There was total quiet and no one even dared to breathe. The cd LED was blinking, the cursor on the fortress waited for input. The SAM was eager to get back to guarding the fortress. Did it sense the danger lurking inside the cdrom drive? It was too late for SAM as the cd started to turn and read the magic codes in it. The cursor gave way to the boot screen of the cd.
The first half of the battle was won. Will Bugs be able to crack open the SAM? Was the SAM defeated? Did the one cd do its job? Will we ever know? I dont know, maybe in the future, we hear of the ending, but for now, I bid adieu.
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